well, the title encompasses alot of wats been happenin' in my life lately.... 1st off, i skipped the "2 post a month" deal (sorry 'bout that my dear bloggers.... i tried & thought that promisin' @least 2 updates a month seemed reasonable, but i failed).... turns out life can get even crazier just wen u think it's calmin' down (wen it rains, it pores & pores, seemin' endless).... i fell.... down.... down 2 the ground while tryin' 2 walk w/o my walker & right leg brace & got a spiral fracture on my left fibula (it's still healin', which means 2 months of skipped therapy sessions), 1 step forward & 2 steps back, it seems.... my hubby & i have been in the process of buyin' our 1st home (btw, it has 2 storeys, that pic above is part of the new house, empty, not yet home & me sittin' in my wheelchair w/ my broken leg).... it became such an exhaustin' ordeal (God willin', we close on it 2morrow).... i feel bittersweet emotions 'cuz i pictured this particular experience differently (all i get 2 do is watch from the sidelines, not fun @ all).... i'm skippin' the stuff that i should b a part of (movin', paintin, decoratin', etc.).... i recently found out that i have a stone in my bladder (it's been formin' 4 several months & it's huge).... unfortunately, 'cuz of my condition (& abnormal bladder) i'm a poster child 4 this kinda thing.... if the doc can't go in & break up the stone w/ a laser 2 flush it out, then i have 2 get a c-section 2 remove the stone.... i'm scared 'bout the surgery, but like everything else that has happened in my life, i believe "if He brings u 2 it, then He'll bring u thru it".... oh, & did i mention that my sis' is gettin' married in may (i have the pleasure of the bein' her maid of honor, which is gr8, but i feel like i can't b wat a maid of honor should b & that makes me sad).... wat a mess, but there's nothin' else 2 do, but keep prayin' & stay positive (no matter wat life keeps throwin' @ me).... i just have 2 keep countin' my blessings (like my lil' miracle nephews & niece that were just born, i miss bein' able 2 b a "get up & go" auntie).... i feel like all these precious moments r bein' skipped, but i know that my family & friends r there 4 me & that helps me feel better.... my life is the big, bottomless lake, i am the stone & sometimes i get a good skippin' momentum & sometimes i don't.... who knows how far i'll go....
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