power of prayer....

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can & the wisdom to know the difference"....

i believe in the power of prayer....

without a doubt, when so many voices are lifted in prayer, miracles happen....

my bladder procedure is scheduled for tomorrow at 10:30 a.m.... i must admit that i'm a bit anxious & nervous, but i know that many special people are praying for everything to be well & so it shall be.... thank you all for your kind words of encouragement, they help me tremendously & keep pushing me through the tough times....

we have a home now, our first new home & we couldn't be more grateful & thankful for all our many blessings....

yesterday was a great day.... it was my sister's bridal shower & everything was beautiful.... she was very happy & that made me happy.... it was also great to catch up with family & friends (i loved the fact that i got to see & hold my little nieces & nephews)....

as i take a deep, calming breath, i know that all will be okay....

i will be okay....

skippin' stones....

well, the title encompasses alot of wats been happenin' in my life lately.... 1st off, i skipped the "2 post a month" deal (sorry 'bout that my dear bloggers.... i tried & thought that promisin' @least 2 updates a month seemed reasonable, but i failed).... turns out life can get even crazier just wen u think it's calmin' down (wen it rains, it pores & pores, seemin' endless).... i fell.... down.... down 2 the ground while tryin' 2 walk w/o my walker & right leg brace & got a spiral fracture on my left fibula (it's still healin', which means 2 months of skipped therapy sessions), 1 step forward & 2 steps back, it seems.... my hubby & i have been in the process of buyin' our 1st home (btw, it has 2 storeys, that pic above is part of the new house, empty, not yet home & me sittin' in my wheelchair w/ my broken leg).... it became such an exhaustin' ordeal (God willin', we close on it 2morrow).... i feel bittersweet emotions 'cuz i pictured this particular experience differently (all i get 2 do is watch from the sidelines, not fun @ all).... i'm skippin' the stuff that i should b a part of (movin', paintin, decoratin', etc.).... i recently found out that i have a stone in my bladder (it's been formin' 4 several months & it's huge).... unfortunately, 'cuz of my condition (& abnormal bladder) i'm a poster child 4 this kinda thing.... if the doc can't go in & break up the stone w/ a laser 2 flush it out, then i have 2 get a c-section 2 remove the stone.... i'm scared 'bout the surgery, but like everything else that has happened in my life, i believe "if He brings u 2 it, then He'll bring u thru it".... oh, & did i mention that my sis' is gettin' married in may (i have the pleasure of the bein' her maid of honor, which is gr8, but i feel like i can't b wat a maid of honor should b & that makes me sad).... wat a mess, but there's nothin' else 2 do, but keep prayin' & stay positive (no matter wat life keeps throwin' @ me).... i just have 2 keep countin' my blessings (like my lil' miracle nephews & niece that were just born, i miss bein' able 2 b a "get up & go" auntie).... i feel like all these precious moments r bein' skipped, but i know that my family & friends r there 4 me & that helps me feel better.... my life is the big, bottomless lake, i am the stone & sometimes i get a good skippin' momentum & sometimes i don't.... who knows how far i'll go....

new yr., new me....

hey everybody!

hope your new yr. has been great so far.... i wish u all many blessings.... as u can c by the pic i've posted, i'm walkin' w/o a walker & w/o a brace on my right leg (yay, me!).... this has been 1 of the most excitin' new developments during my recovery (naturally, i'm very proud of myself).... i've been doin' so much more in therapy & have become more independent @ home & let me tell u, it feels great! alleluia! it's still a wobbly world & i still need help 4 certain things, but over all, it's been pretty awesome.... i meant 2 post more updates durin' the holidays, but they got pretty crazy as can b expected, so from now on, i will try 2 post atleast 2 new updates a month.... thanx again 4 all your prayers.... they r definitely workin'! i thank God everyday 4 all my wonderful family & friends....

lots of luv,

me

p.s. my therapist told me 2 get a prescription 4 a drivin' test just 2 test where i'm @ (yikes!).... i think i'll wait a lil' while 4 that adventure, lol....

walkin' is a balancin' act....

well, i've done it.... i've officially joined the human race as a "walking" member! it's been a long & arduous journey (& it ain't over just yet), but i feel so blessed 2 have come this far.... seein' the joy on my family's faces as i took my first steps for them (w/o my walker), brought me so much happiness.... i am filled w/ renewed hope that 1 day, i will reach my goal.... i sit on the exercise ball in pt 2 practice my balance (it's not as easy as it looks), but i'm gettin' better @ it.... keep the prayers comin'! in ot, i've been tryin' new things w/ my right hand w/ the help of the e-stim machine.... i was able 2 hold an empty styrofoam cup & bring it 2 my mouth (this is a big deal, 'cuz my right hand has been the slowest 2 return).... next week, the therapist said that i was goin' 2 try it again, but w/ water inside the cup (i asked her if i could wear a bib.... lol!) i just know that i'm gonna spill water everywhere.... oh well, i gotta start somewhere.... plz pray that my walkin' improves as well as my right hand....

many blessings....

treadmill triumph!

i did it! i guess that i was scared 4 nothin'.... i knew that God's protective hand was goin' 2 guide me through it.... i was a lil' nervous @ 1st, but once i got started, it was smooth sailing (@ a snail pace), but nevertheless.... i can't wait 2 try it again & mayb go faster this time?.... my therapist was very proud & my parents showed up as a surprise (i was so excited)! my dad has witnessed 2 1st already: when i 1st walked w/ the walker & the treadmill.... my mom learned how 2 massage my scapula (it's been hurtin' quite a bit).... i was so happy they were there & of corse my awesome sis'! we'll c wat's in store 4 next time.... 'til then my friends....

therapy break-through

2day i walked during pt.... hand in hand w/ my 'sis & the therapist.... it almost felt normal (except when i wobbled from my lack of steady balance), but i'm almost there.... almost.... next week, the treadmill (i'm so nervous).... my right hand seems 2 b gettin' better.... i guess that the e-stim is doing it's job.... i played on the wii in ot.... the therapist has 2 wrap my right hand around the controller w/ an ace bandage (i call it "being mummified", lol!).... i'm pretty good @ boxing, but it's exhausting! bowling isn't 2 bad, i just have 2 press the buttons w/ my left hand fingers.... i hope 2 b able 2 draw & paint again 1 day.... 4 now, it's coloring books, chubby crayons & handwriting paper.... practice, practice, practice....
w/ luv,
tati

goodness of grace

hi all!

i just set up my blog profile & i wanted 2 welcome any avm survivors & friends 2 post comments & let me know how life is goin' 4 them.... i also encourage all prayer warriors 2 help me in the fight 4 awarness & knowledge.... by the goodness of God's grace, we r still able 2 share precious & blessed moments w/ our luved 1's.... i wish that 2day finds u happy & well....

sending u hope & faith,

tati